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Havent forgotten about you. Miss you like crazy. You will always have a place in my heart and I will never forget you. You helped me grow up fast but it was worth it. I miss you but it has gotten a little easier everyday. Thank you so much for the memorys and for being there while you were! xoxo

It's been 5 years and it's selfish to say that I have moved on..... I will always remember you. You were my best friend and you will always be in my heart. I can't live life in the past. I need to grow up. I need to think of my future. I miss you Ozzie and every year that passes gets a little easier but I will never be the same. I know you didnt mean to hurt us. And I forgive you.

I miss you. : (

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Why am I still mad at you?

2 years today have come and passed. I miss you Ozzie not a day goes by that I dont think about you or some crazy expierience ...... cat nip lol , 4-20-05 crazy night, pushing your ass in a shopping cart in the middle of the winter at like 2 a.m. over to Breonas, the good talks, the hard talks, the talks that lasted for hours, the christmas you had with your TRUE FAMILY. I miss you. I don't think you could even imagine how much I truely do miss you........ 2 years ago you made a horrible decision. A choice that if you could only think past the current hurt, the current feeling, the current situation ..... you would have been fine. It was always hard for you to look forward to look at the brighter side to see that time heals and there were A LOT A LOT more fish in the sea. I still get pissed, but why? I have to forgive you for what happend. I have to forgive Amber for having no clue. As HARD as it is I have to forgive your dad for being a SHITTY FATHER. You have to forgive to get through. To get through the feelings that I felt. Hurt, angry, sad, confused, lost. I had to forgive everyone everything to make me get better. You would be proud of me buddy. It was the hardest time of my life so far. Running up three flights of stairs banging on your door to expect an answer. But there wasnt one. I hate that you ended your life so soon. You had a whole life a head of you. You had everything to look forward too. I knew you would succeed in life but you couldnt look past how hurt you were. Irregardless you are in a better place. I KNOW that you are in a better place. You had no family to teach you about faith. You had no family to tell you that things would get better and that things do get hard. Whoever said LIFE would be EASY? You once asked where was God when this person died or where was God when a whole ship of enslaved innocent people died? Why didnt God help them why did God let them die? Ozzie, God was there. God was there when that person died. God was there when a whole ship of enslaved innocent people died. God was there when you took your own life ..... You were my best friend. You were my brother. You still are and always will be but its fucking hard. It was hard to wake up every morning. It was hard to get up go to school go to work go about my daily life. LIFE IS HARD but I have FAITH. I have faith that when I wake up I will have a good day I have faith that everyday I breath is a good day. That I have the CHOICE to make my life how I want it to be. A better life. I dont want to hurt. I dont want to be sad all the time. I dont want to feel like I wouldnt care if I dropped off the earth tomorrow. I WANT TO LIVE. I WANT TO HAVE A WIFE THAT LOVES ME. I WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN THAT I CAN TAKE CARE OF. I WANT TO LIVE. Im sorry you made the choice not to. I love you Marcin Jerzy Mitrega. If only you knew how many people really did care for you. I will miss you every day for as long as I live.